Hated asian men. She wanted to kill them. They were just as good as dead to her. The more I learn the more I realize that asian women hate asian men so much as to abuse them when they see them in person; these women go on social media and show off their mixed “whitish” babies so proudly. I am the product of that. How can I love with myself like this? These women seek to destroy asian men, all traces of them. I am the product of this. My mother wanted the asian in her to die, so I will.
I’ve devoted my life to my wife. She’s the only reason I live. Maybe she was sent to me to postpone my suicide. If I hadn’t met her I would have ended it long ago. I have seen some strange things in my life that I take as signs. I am not afraid to end my life. I look forward to it actually. Living in a world where these evil women are not punished by god is worse than not living at all. My diary I am telling you right now that I live only for her. I am an empty machine with nothing else to live for. I await my death urgently and with anticipation. I can’t wait for it to be over.