Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: The Truth, From a Hapa, Half-Asian Male (Long read)

 

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Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a small group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading.

 

  • In short, we Hapa men, are Asian men born from Asian women who thought Asian men were inferior or unattractive or unmarriageable in every way; and our fathers were racist (or clueless) enough to support this by virtue of their desire for sex and partnership.

 

  • We Hapas / Eurasians / Half-Asian people are almost overwhelming born from white fathers, implying that Asian features, when on a male, indicate undesirability, not only romantically, but by society itself. 

 

  • The myth of “Hapa / half-Asian beauty” is just a myth, and if we are not beautiful, or just look Asian, we are just reminded that Asian men are at the bottom of the hierarchy socially, romantically, as evidenced by even our own mothers’ choices. The entire value of Hapas then, becomes his looks or his ability to not look Asian, and if he fails to meet this criteria he will be poorly equipped to deal with it.

 

  • Claims of cultural flaws of Asian men also conveniently coincide with Asian men being rated the least desirable. Moreover, my father as with many other Hapas’ fathers was an extreme cultural conservative and vitriolic anti-feminist.

 

  • Don’t believe me, ask for proof and I’ll provide; I literally am taking a monumental risk writing this blog as the details are fairly specific. There is nothing on this website that can be refuted logically.

 

  • My father was borderline-autistic, unable to make eye contact, and saw Asian women as a “replacement white woman” when he was unable to get a white woman; my mother saw his blue eyes and height and saw him as a ticket to integration and higher status in her new life in the west.

 

  • It simply does not make sense for an Asian woman who, like millions of others, views Asian men as worthless, then has a half Asian son, and expect him to accept this, rationally. There is no political thesis or alignment that can explain the massive imbalance other than one that is self evident to no one but the children of these relationships and this blog looks to understand and expose them.

Asian women and their insistence on marrying and having children with white men is not something based on love, but rather (at worst) on hate (largely of Asian men) or at best un-attraction, yet their sons are Asian men and we are taught from birth that love is not colorblind (I’ll discuss how loveless and hateful my parents’ marriage was, later in this essay).

I have come across enough Asian women who thought I was beneath them, to believe that all of us, their sons, must resent and hate our parents in order to truly punish them. Contrarily, embracing this and finding solace in hedonism with white women would effectively mean that I have to admit that I am able to do so because I am half-White; and this is not a moral or healthy choice. I would rather embrace my Asianness and expose these issues – as very few other Hapas are willing to. I no longer want to sit by and watch the hypocrisy and hatred flying through the Asian community and the effect this has on people much more susceptible than me (as you can see how susceptible I was two years ago).

For reference, I am in my 20’s, look similar to a whiter version of Hong Kong celebrity Daniel Wu (the kind of Hapa that looks white to some; Asian to others; yet photographs more Asian; porcelain white skin that sunburns, very dark brown, thick and difficult to maintain hair, brown-greenish eyes, hairless chest and arms but hairy legs), am Ivy League educated and from a considerably wealthy Chinese American family on the East Coast (the wealth is not mine, directly). I also have one mentally ill brother, in his 30’s, unemployed, institutionalized and a virgin, who looks significantly more Asian than me. My father was, when younger, 6’3″, blue eyed, red haired and with a large beard, my mother 5’3″ or 5’4″, slender, with dyed red hair, colored contacts, and a sexless and unhappy marriage as long as I can remember.

We are lauded up as some kind of beautiful Hapa miracle children, but in reality we are born out of nothing other than cultural fetishization and the pursuit of certain physical attributes, neither of which we are capable of having, since we are, after all, Asian men.

Only after we are born do our parents begin to panic and start trying to instill self-esteem in us by teaching us about our heritage, falsely encouraging us to believe that we will be accepted by whites, or worse, by Asians, the same Asians that our mothers were trying to escape from. The irony of teaching Hapas to be proud to be Asian when Asian women are willfully throwing themselves at white men, is staggering.

But it’s obvious by just going outside, where you can see White male / Asian woman couples sitting next to other white male / Asian woman couples they don’t even know – that love is not colorblind, and as a Eurasian male this became evident to me in my teens, despite the fact that I do not look that Asian.

In fact, Hapas and Eurasians are still treated as Asians by discerning whites (anyone who bothers to make the distinction will not make the distinction between full, and half) turned down not only by white women but by also Asian women, subject to jokes and insults by the white majority where he is, and then outcast by full Asians who view him as an oddity.

Hapas and Eurasians are supposed to merely accept that white men were the ideal in their mothers’ eyes, and that no matter what we will never be the full white person, or allowed entry into white culture, the same one that our mothers had such an easy time integrating with.

The only reason that talking about this is taboo is because of our culture in which such sensitive subjects of race and gender are immediately shut down in favor of a sugar-coated anti-reality that seeks to ignore that the vast, vast, vast majority of Eurasians have white fathers. So we literally see hundreds of thousands of Eurasians with white last names parading around like they are unique, when really we represent the obvious failings of Asian men to procreate. 

Still don’t believe me?

If love were color blind, then there would indeed be more Asian men breeding with Asian women, black women, or white women, but instead Asian women rely on their privilege of having a vagina, being the gatekeepers to sex, to negotiate relationships with white men in a perverse form of “marrying up”. If love were honest, and good, and unbiased, then Asian women would marry black men, Indian men, and Hispanic men at the same rate that they do White men. But they do not.

If love were honest, good, and unbiased, then Asian women would be as open to dating Asian men as they are white men. But they are not.

Hapa men are unique in that they are the direct result of hatred, not love (I will explain how my parents’  marriage was in actuality later) and “breeding up,” where we are considered inferior and superior at the same time. Just look at the fetishization of Hapas as being beautiful and talented, rather than the fetishization of Asians as being beautiful and talented; Whites are assumed to be beautiful and talented and Hapas only so because we are mixed with whites. After we are born, we are paraded around as accessories, our own mothers treating us preferentially on how Asian or un-Asian we look, all to the background of our parents’ marriage collapsing (e.g., separate bedrooms, constant fighting) since it was never based on the love in the first place.

We are a unique group of people who are destroyed the second we are conceived, and grow to become aware of the seething hatred our own mothers were capable of the minute we reach young adulthood. We literally are Asian men (even though some of us don’t even look that Asian, whites still remind us that we are) born to Asian women who, for whatever reason, savagely hated Asian men – then on top of that, our own fathers took these sadistic women into their homes and asked us to listen to their authority and advice on how to conduct our lives, because they believed that Asian women were deferential to whites. We are therefore the most unstable and at risk people on earth, and seek to destroy our own families, as mine as been rightfully destroyed with my dead mother and my pathetic, impoverished father and schizophrenic brother. I have nothing to live for – my belief in love and meaning is shot, only believing in the realities of evolution and sexual selection.

For this reason, I  refuse to be their “dream child,” I will live my life hedonistically and lazily and avoid success, and I will expose the poison that is this kind of relationship, and the lies about being Hapa, until I am dead. I am not alone in this feeling, as I’m sure there are hundreds of thousands of Hapa men who have, at one point in their life, questioned their own parents – especially with the amount of REAL LIFE hatred that these couples exhibit.

Whether they do this for status or for appearance is not relevant, though I do think that it is probably for the sake of appearance, since the taller build, wider face, and healthier skin color of white men might be the main reason why Asian women chase white males. Regardless of their reasons, they clearly will not stop doing it, and completely ignore the massive negative repercussions this has on their children, like me.

  • Hapa sons inherit all of the physical qualities that make Asian men unattractive, with the added advantage that we know that our own mothers attempted to breed it out. In my case I looked significantly “whiter” when I was younger and gradually, into my 20’s, began to look more Asian and was ill equipped to deal with the fallout from this. For example, on being told several times that I “looked more Asian” – as an insult, and denied relationships because (she) “didn’t like Asians,” made me realize that love itself isn’t real, as we would imagine it.
  • These physical characteristics include: smaller frame from our mothers, narrower rib cage, larger heads, oily skin, thick, unmanageable hair, narrower jaws, lack of normal skin coloring (a lot of Hapas have really pale skin, rather than reddish or tan), adiposity around the mid-section and chest, etc.
  • The Hapas who somehow deny this look white enough to “pass,” are gay, or essentially are so drawn in by the honeyed lies of their parents that they could never possibly imagine them being as awful as they were.

I was born of this relationship and to this day, I remain full of self hatred, lost, confused, and destined to die by my own hand, or to die having run to the furthest corners of the world, now for five years, to get away from the very thing that birthed me. I will, as a result, maybe as one of the only things I may accomplish in my life, write about the insanity of these relationships, how they are the ugliest thing on earth, and how they lead to pure disaster for their male children. I have long been known as eccentric, odd, weird, lost, all the while despite being described as “beautiful,” having had men and women photograph me randomly on the subway (seriously), having women balk at me in public, being labeled as gorgeous and as “the most handsome man” they’ve known in real life by my straight male, taller, more successful white friends; the day before Elliot Rodger’s massacre I even reached out to him on a popular forum and told him that I identified with his feelings, his self-doubt, his narcissism, his issues with his mother, and I said that they were uniquely Hapa male issues.

So, these relationships are sick, for the following reasons:

1) The white males, in many cases, view the Asian female as an easy alternative to white women, and as a valid vessel to propagate the continuation of their intelligent, master-race “genes,” whereas white women are seen as being sexually perverse, and prone to mating and having relations with the “lesser races.” My father is a strong example, having long harbored extremely religious, white-supremacist, and misogynist viewpoints; I was essentially raised as a white child, read western literature every night growing up, and spoon-fed antisemitic and conspiracy theory beliefs since childhood.

Some, in many ways, would consider my father a Men’s Rights Activist, or to a lesser extent, a MGTOW, who, like many other white men, felt entitled to a world where God reigned, valued the white man, and white civilization, rewarded the white man for being white, and, when white women failed to recognize his inherent “power,” (instead choosing to lie down with black males, or to party, or embrace liberalism or feminism), Asian women, of course, were the next best choice. I also know this because having come across numerous other blogs (reddit.com/r/hapashapasons.wordpress.com, stuffeurasianslike.wordpress.com) that talk about the same issue, my case seemed remarkably common. My father, for example, believes the Nazis were heroes, and my mother even called the police on him, when we were growing up, for talking about how the Holocaust never happened.

He strongly supports Mel Gibson, goes on racist rants about blacks, and vehemently hates Jews, Hollywood, and modern day American society. In this way, my “chaste,” Oriental mother was a strong alternative for him to marry, as Asian women are well known for worshiping white males (however I doubt he thought about it this way). Ironically, despite all of this, my father is also a stringent Asiaphile, having strong fantasies (particularly about Japan) about Asian conservatism and social order; and even more ironically he dislikes the Chinese for their embracing of Communism.

2) The white males oftentimes are socially inept, socially awkward, or unable to compete in the modern day marketplace, both sexual and economic. My father would be diagnosed with Aspberger’s Syndrome if such a syndrome was known in his younger days. He is a social recluse, has almost no friends, listens to wave radio, believed that 9/11 was indicative of the coming Apocalypse, believes strongly in conspiracy theories that are very common to White Nationalists and anti-semites, and believes strongly in God and that God hates Jews and that the judgement day will eventually come; common to people like this, white supremacy, the belief in Aryan people at the top, with Asian people being a distant yet equal cousin, and Asian women, of course, being a healthy substitute for hypergamous, slutty, immoral White women, while Asian women remain hypergamous in their own right. I know this, because sadly, I am now both antisocial (having once been known as outgoing albeit eccentric), have long since disappeared from all of my friends, have gone through a thorough depression at the way American society was, and during the time period that I considered myself “white,” I too embraced white nationalism (sadly), and was so depressed about white women sleeping with men of color that I sought refuge in China, to await the eventual apocalypse. As insane as it sounds, this is a phase in my life worth mentioning as it will be increasingly common among young men with white fathers and non-white mothers.

3) Asian women make divergent, opposing, and illogical statements about Asian men that will eventually find their way to their sons. The common claims from Asian women about why they don’t date Asian men come in two forms: The first is that Asian men are patriarchal, controlling, and conservative.  This is a patent lie.  This is a lie because the white men that they engage in relationships with are even more patriarchal, racist, and conservative, looking to Asian women as an alternative to feminist white women. The entire premise of white feminism is that white men are too controlling, patriarchal and conservative.

I know this looking at my own father, who is by far the most patriarchal, far-right individual that I know, so much so that it might have eventually contributed to my mother’s death; her rage at him, even calling the police because he had told her that the Holocaust did not happen (this is still a vivid memory in my head).  Again, there are several other races that Asian women can choose from, but they only choose white men, making this a complete fabrication and lie based on faulty logic and excuses. The very fact that they are capable of framing an entire group of men as the same while saying that another group (white men) are inherently better reeks of hypocrisy and hatred that I cannot ignore or forgive. The second claim is that Asian men are ugly, unattractive, small, with small penises, which contrasts strongly with the claim that Asian men are overbearing and too patriarchal.

The horrible danger of this claim is that it trickles down to Asian women’s very own sons, who begin to SERIOUSLY doubt that their mother’s “preference” has anything to do with character, and everything to do with physicality – whereby I have come to despise my own mother with a vehement passion.  Much of my history, if you care to read earlier in this blog, might stem from this ingrown self hatred that comes from being quite literally racially cuckolded by my own mother and women in my family, whose own belief that white men are physically superior mentally drains and destroys me, as her male offspring, and causes a bitter, catastrophic dichotomy within myself. Even the tiniest saying that “you look Asian” was enough to set me off, as I had long equated being Asian with being inferior, naturally.

Regardless of the “reasons,” or if sexual preference can be somehow discouraged, the very fact that it is so common and the fact that our mother’s choices were based inherently on preference for determinants of sexual / genetic health make all of our life choices irrelevant, because it is clear that ultimately our deciding factors and success in life and love are determined by our genetic makeup, so much so that our own mothers were driven in such a way to shoot down AN ENTIRE ETHNIC GROUP while giving unfair preference to another – means that any and all choices we make in life are hinged on our appearance and that nothing we can ever do can make us as attractive as a white male – as proven by our own mothers.

On top of this, I simply have no desire to be a “good son,” and merely want to either spend the rest of my life exposing these issues or, god forbid, as the title of the blog says, kill myself, which was the original plan when this blog started. (December 2015, 2 years after the blog began, I have decided to change this and instead devote time to writing, ironically this blog having been helpful in finding my sanity).

4) Our own mothers reinforce the horrible stereotypes about Asian men.  Regardless of their reasons, there are persistent stereotypes that exist in Western culture about Asian men. Whether or not they believed these stereotypes, we assume that they had no qualms about reinforcing the extreme negative image of Asian men by chasing, in droves, white men, and that our own mothers were very, very capable of betraying the possible future of their own sons by proving to the world, and their own offspring, that Asian men are and forever will be less desirable than white men. For every time that an Asian man is shot down for being Asian, the perception that Asian men are undesirable is reinforced, and our own mothers become guilty by association for actively being part of the self-congratulating group of Asian women who hate Asian men and think they are too good for Asian men.

For this, my own mother is guilty, who I shall hate until my last dying breath, and I will never, ever, EVER be able to look at what she did in another way; I shall go out every day, very well aware that Asian men are so undesirable that my own mother sought to avoid them entirely, knowing that I can never, ever be viewed as desirable as them, and that any woman who notices me notices me only because I am whiter than I would otherwise be.

In Conclusion

Asian women will deny, lie, and beat around the bush until doomsday, but they will never admit that what they do is for purely physical reasons, and they will never admit that the ramifications it has upon their children is profound and disastrous. As I have read on some other blogs, this kind of relationship is purely evil, simply because it follows the patterns of basic biology and evolutionary psychology, while deceiving its offspring into thinking that it is normal; the whole “Hapa” children or “mixed children” are valuable and / or beautiful is nothing more than a generalization and a lie, and it soon becomes evident that mixed children are birthed from couples forming extremely unbalanced patterns that favor women over men.

The male offspring of these relationships are then put at special risk and wind up imploding, as is the case of my brother, who is 32 years old, bed ridden, schizophrenic, and so badly damaged from his combination of racist/religious white father / self hating Asian mother, that he is essentially dead.

In short, these relationships are based on the hatred of the Asian male (in some cases, with the extra bonus of hating the white female), and the overvaluation of whiteness, and the resulting offspring, should he grow up in America, be keenly aware of this societal hatred, and grow, as I did, to despise his own mother.

Mine is dead, (from a bad blood transfusion after a C-section birth), otherwise I would make it my goal to humiliate, demean and hate her, as I simply cannot love a person who would harbor such preference, if only because she is a rotten, ROTTEN person, and it is not enough to assume that “maybe” she did not hate Asian men – as the pattern exists enough that I would sincerely doubt her excuses if she attempted to explain it away.

The only reason it is me writing this blog and not some other Hapa is because I am free from the mental compulsion that my mother would otherwise have forced on me; I started out looking white but gradually have become more Asian in appearance; I am not a coward; I have empathy towards full Asian men; I am likely of above average emotional intelligence than is commonly found among Hapas.

181 thoughts on “Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: The Truth, From a Hapa, Half-Asian Male (Long read)

  1. Interesting fact; in scenario’s where the father is black and the mother is white, the children also do better than when the mom is black and the father is white.

    Usually mothers raise the children and carry the culture. People raised by white moms have a better innate understanding of white culture ala Obama.

    So do you think part of the reason you refuse to date Asian women is because you view Asians as inferior to white people?

    Is that partially why you hate your mom, for her being Asian in the first place?

    Also don’t “white” people actually have the highest tendency towards mental disorders and spree killings? I mean; even the “asians” who do it are mixed with white, out of the two black guys one was half white….the only women a white woman that didn’t like Mondays.

    Also why do the Indians(from India) have the harshest times dating out of all the races? I mean; a lot of the statements in regards to your average Asian(Chinese etc….) wouldn’t apply to them when you think of hair, size and stature. They tend to have that.

    If that mattered as much as women say; than men of Indian descent would be doing better in the dating department than your general Asian male at least.

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    • thats a lie. kids born to bw/ww relationships have more of a racial identity than bm/ww relationships. bm bore the self hatred into their children. not to mention that divorce rates with bm/ww are double than with bw/wm so dont spread lies. children suffer more under bm/ww than their bw counterparts. not to mention black men are starting to leave their mixed offspring much much more. tay digs is going out of his way to make his child not come to the realization that he is a black child in america. FACTS bw raising mixed children are raising them far better than their bm counterpart.

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      • Actually looking it up again; I was getting studies mixed up.

        There’s a study that was about how children of black fathers and white mothers have higher IQ’s than children of white fathers and black mothers.

        There was also a study about how light skinned black people in general have higher IQ’s, better educations and are more economically successful than dark skinned black people.

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    • Actually I’m sorry that’s incorrect. Children of black mothers and white fathers do better because they are usually married and stay married. Those women are usually educated and marry educated men. The out of wedlock and abandonment rate among bm who have children with bw is almost 90%. Sorry but you might want to check yourself.

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      • Most divorces; depending on social levels are initiated by women, 70-90 percent of the time.

        Haven’t looked up how it might vary for inter-racial relationships but I have to imagine it’s something close to the same.

        Black men also have the highest rate of involvement in their children’s lives out of all the races of men for divorced men.

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    • What do you think about this? I am a 22 year old from London. My father is Brazilian and my mother is South African and I am black.. I see a lot of Asian women with white men, usually a lot older, like 29/30+ but amongst my generation especially in London and America a lot of Japanese and Korean and Chinese girls are dating black guys.. We are bigger than the white guys, are more of a taboo to Asian parents, we have bigger dicks and we do what we want, my gf is half Chinese half viet and she loves how deep I fuck her.

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  2. “Interesting fact; in scenario’s where the father is black and the mother is white, the children also do better than when the mom is black and the father is white.”

    I doubt this is true. BM and WW are a very unstable combination, a lot of those white mothers end up raising the kids themselves, or leave them in orphanages when raising a minority child is too hard for them. We all know how divorce messes up children and affects their development. BMWW are 200% more likely to divorce than white couples. In contrast, BWWM couples are 44% LESS likely than white couples, this is the strongest interracial family unit of all : http://www.blogher.com/latest-statistics-divorce-rates-among-interracial-marriages

    Also, AMWW couples also have 59% of chances of divorce. Basically, the white women you praise so much creates the most unstable marriages, they can’t possibly be great moms if they fail in great numbers. They are part of the most mentally ill group after all. Success can be found in the opposite too, for instance Tia and Tamera Mowry were raised by WMBW and became very successful, stable, married ladies. PLUS – Black marriages, as the study states, are even stronger than white marriages, which means that BW are in the strongest marriages PERIOD. That obviously proves that they are good wives and mothers despite what the media claims.

    Obviously, white-mom-having Barack Obama knew which woman he could count on for support and lifetime partnership. His mom didn’t raise him most of his life so how does she even get credit? He was raised by his grandparents. He is successful because of them and especially his solid rock Michelle. I doubt he would have ever been President with a white wife (would have probably been divorced twice by now).

    Men carry the cultures in general, this is why women follow them and not the other way around. In interracial couples 9 times out of 10, the dominating culture is that of the FATHER. Let’s not forget that Barack was also PARTLY RAISED BY AN ASIAN MAN in Indonesia when he was young. He is not a “typical” BMWW biracial child, mentally, professionally as well as romantically. The most successful biracial child from BMWW doesnt worship white folks and didn’t even marry one, that alone speaks volumes.

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    • Men spend their time working or watching TV, playing video games etc….majority of child raising is left to the women. They raise the kids; they decorate the houses, decide what food gets eaten etc… Culture gets transmitted by the mothers, not the fathers. From a cultural perspective, Obama is about as white as it gets, whiter really than most white people I have met.

      I’m not really praising them (especially factoring in white people’s tendencies towards mental disorders); it maybe as simple as being “white” culturally in a white culture makes you more likely to succeed ala Obama. Just having that connection to white culture made him more successful than any other black man in history in navigating a white society and gaining power and relevance.

      As for divorce; all that really shows is that marriage is over rated as a factor for success.

      Though Obama having some connection to Asian culture might explain it as well, aren’t Asians and Indo-Aryan’s the most economically successful ethnicities in the US?

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  3. What do you think about recent genetic advancement, that makes it literally possible to select the kid to be mostly white, there just has to be Asian female and white male? Therefore, there will be no self-hating Hapas that look Asian, and, therefore, are hated by the mother, and end up in shitty families, and eventually self-hating losers like you? Is this the end?

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  4. How large is the Asian population where you grew up? Much of the way we believe the world works come from our personal experiences, factual or not. You did not give specific evidence that supports your assertion that your mother hated Asian men. Even if it were true and you had anecdotal evidence from other Hapas, it doesn’t fully represent the Hapa population as a whole. If you google search “Asian women hate Asian men and that is why they marry white men” or something along those lines, your search results will reflect your search query. You will not get objective results. When you look for specific information, you’re more likely to find the specific information that you’re looking for and ignoring information that may be contrary to what you were looking for.

    So are you saying that you agree that white men are physically superior/attractive compared to Asian men based on the assumption that Asian women prefer white men over Asian men? Consider the statistics from this blog post.

    http://www.asian-nation.org/interracial.shtml

    When you look at the statistics for all Asian people the US, you have to consider that many Asian women with white men marriages are former American military who married women from Vietnam, South Korea, and the Philippines. There are way more males than females in the military so of course the majority of interracial marriages resulting from this would be of the white male with Asian female variety. Also, the difference in the frequency of white male with Asian female vs Asian male with white female relationships can partially be due to cultural factors. There is more pressure on Asian males to marry Asian females than the other way around because the men carry on the family name. Despite that fact, Asian males who grow up in the United States are more likely to marry women of different races compared to Asian males that were born in their respective Asian countries. You can’t pin the reason why there are more White men married to Asian women compared to the other way around solely on an alleged physical preference for white men on the part of Asian women. There are different factors that contribute.

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      • What is it that you think I’m trying to make excuses for? I will say that I am not trying to invalidate your experience. The experience you describe does sound very emotionally damaging. Also, results aren’t always congruent with intent. By that I mean that even if in some strange way, your parents meant well in the way they raised you, your experience is your experience and the result may still be negative. At the same time, your individual experience does not represent the experience of every single hapa person. Even if you have heard that the experience of other hapas with similar experiences, that just represents the specific experiences of those individual and not representative of every single hapa. I think the trajectory of your thinking is not allowing you to heal from your past hurt and is instead just making it worse. I’m just inviting you to think more objectively and accept the past as the past and not as a premonition of certain doom. Have you read anything about practicing mindfulness? Our brains tend to be constantly active with thoughts and this can be distracting from really being able to experience the present moment for what it is. You talk about truth. When actively thinking brain is preoccupied by negative thinking, you view your present being through a negative lense. This is not objective truth but a distorted view of reality. I tried to present you with some objective facts/statistics for you to consider alternative and more objective ways of thinking. I do accept that I may not be able to change how you think. I can’t realistically burden myself with that. You are your own person after all. But I do think that this pattern of thinking that you described is only further damaging you emotionally

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      • Incorrect. You presented me with clickbait that is used to talk about light hearted topics that only broach the subject of dating interracially, which for whatever reason only involves women dating white men – no other race of men.

        If you were genuine, you would recognize that even dating a KOREAN or JAPANESE person would be an entirely different thing than dating a Chinese person, because of the cultural differences which are almost as large as dating a white person.

        So what I’m proposing to you is this: THERE IS NO GRAND INTERRACIAL NARRATIVE. There is no amazing progress being made with White men and Asian women. Asian women and white men make it out to be this incredible experience when all it is is Asian women having a hardon for white males of any size or shape.

        The UNIVERSAL underlying cause is the debasement and hatred and spurning of Asian looking men, which I as a half-Asian and barely Asian looking man, have experienced myself.

        You’re asking me to support the widespread white worship by Asian women and I refuse because it hurts me.

        Not only do I have to go outside and see Asian women laughing in the face of Asian men and making a huge show of dating interracially but I have to look at my own family history and see a mother and father that was based on superficial attraction and a desire for rebellion on my mother’s side and a desire for a submissive, conservative alternative to white “sluts” on my father’s side.

        Oh wait – but let me see – you’re somehow different, along with the 50% of Asian women who date out. You’re all unique. In your passion for white men.

        Bullshit.

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  5. Gender/race problems exist for sure. Many people have problems with parents of varying kinds. Many people struggle with a kind of racial/gender identity.

    Yes, you could be a stereotypically beautiful, rich, straight, abled-bodied white guy who is worshipped by girls of all races.
    Or you could be an ugly, poor, disabled black guy who gets shunned.

    Or you could be an interesting, blendable, cool, cultured, open-minded, funny, contemporary, sexy mixed, good-looking White/Asian guy who gets all the girl’s attention. They’re out there and will have their time in the future- for sure. In some places- already a hot thing.
    Or you could be a brooding, cynical, bitter, negative, self-absorbed, self-hating, world-hating, parents-blaming, generalising, racist, sexist, mixed White/Asian guy…

    Just because you’re mixed, doesn’t mean you’re devoid of options for friends and dating and opportunities and LIFE. Whites and certain types definitely have more privileges in many cases, but being mixed also comes with heaps in its own world as well… tickets to 2 cultures/races, more friends opportunities, more mixable, opportunity to take on the positive stereotypical traits of each race, being seen as better looking and even thought of as “superior” genetics… We sure aren’t there yet but way way way into the future, humans will all pretty much be mixed- whether everyone likes it or not. So in a way you could say mixed people are the “advanced, superior” future people.

    Spewing hate and abuse and generalisations towards asian women and your own mum, however true your theories about her might be, isn’t going to do you any favours with asian women and women in general. Spewing hate and abuse and generalisations about white guys and relationships and races and people isn’t gonna help you and your mind and your own relationships and your life.

    You hate the stereotypes and treatment people have for you as an Asian guy and a product of a WMAF relationship, yet you’re spitting disgusting, negative stereotypical hate all through in this post and completely supporting and furthering it. Your attitude and perception is everything.

    You’re so wrapped in self pity and hate that it doesn’t even occur to you that for every “crazy, burdened, gone wrong” mixed guy in the news, there are a million great, goodlooking, successful, popular mixed guys at the top of life- who don’t make it into the news (but maybe lists of attractive mixed guys on the net.) scattered throughout societies… You don’t even stop to think that for every typical hating, judging, racist group, there are communities out there of open-minded, non judgemental, cultured, blendable people, thriving, genuine, loving, equal mixed relationships and people who desperately wish they were as cool and exciting as a cool, sexy mixed guy.

    You can hate the cards you’re dealt with all you want, or you can learn how to play the best with what you got. Some people will always have “better cards” than you, but it’s up to you whether you rip up your own cards and admit defeat or work to get to the top of your game and and play it well.

    I strongly recommend getting out of your obsessive, narrow minded, toxic, warped self pity party, going for therapy, counselling, getting outlets, going for your passions in life, doing what you enjoy, meeting like minded people and living your life better.

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    • No. I’m going to expose you because unlike you, whoever you are, I refuse to coast by on my privilege and prefer to demonize and point out the sick, depraved people that they are.

      I’m assuming you’re one of them.

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    • “You’re so wrapped in self pity and hate that it doesn’t even occur to you that for every “crazy, burdened, gone wrong” mixed guy in the news, there are a million great, goodlooking, successful, popular mixed guys at the top of life- who don’t make it into the news (but maybe lists of attractive mixed guys on the net.) ”

      I’m not a self pitier. I love myself. What I do pity is the millions upon millions of Asian men who are going to die alone or by their own hand.

      As for successful Eurasians, for whatever reason the majority of them have Asian fathers.

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    • “however true your theories about her might be”

      Stopped right there. They’re true. And I’m not going to stop until everyone knows it. Now you can pat yourself on the back knowing you thought you had reached out to me. You didn’t. This website is on its way to being extremely visible and I’ve actually had more eurasians agreeing with me than denying it.

      Of course, why would you care – being an Asian woman. You’ve got the world at your fingertips.

      So what you’re going to have to do is find out for yourself if your own son feels the same way.

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    • “tickets to 2 cultures/races, more friends opportunities, more mixable, opportunity to take on the positive stereotypical traits of each race, ”

      LOL. No. I’m not going to go over why this is bullshit again, and again, and again.

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      • Yes, I am. What people don’t realize is that hate breeds hate. Someone once wrote that Eurasians are naturally talented people; it’s only a question of time if they want to use their talents for good or bad. I’m using it for both, depending on ones opinion.

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  6. “I would add myself, stricken with severe depression, unable to work, unable to socialize with anyone and I’m almost 26.”

    This isn’t because you’re Eurasian, it’s because you’re on the spectrum. It’s always hardest for people who are only on it ever so slightly.

    Go ahead, tell me you’re not.

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      • So what you claim is that every Asian woman/White man couple is in love for superficial reasons?

        What if I told you that I know of such a couple, but that both individuals happen to be blind? (Literally blind. They met at a get-together for blind people and didn’t even know each other’s races until having dated for a few weeks.)

        It would seem that you’re “Ivy league” education has resulted in some warped propaganda brainwash BS. It seems like you’re depressed and angry with the world, but you’re not a child. Nobody is going to pity you when there are little babies suffering in Ethiopia. Sorry, but you need professional psychological help. You’re a racist and a complete loon.

        Did you read that?

        You, sir, are a RACIST. You’re full of hatred and judgment towards others. Not all Asian women are “self-hating,” and not all white men are “looking for submissive bitches.”

        You’re a grown-ass man. Get off your self-pity high horse, grow a pair, and stop blaming mommy and daddy for your problems. Nobody “hates you,” you pretentious turd. You’re wasting your life and energy with a blog on this crap? My god.

        Women find yu unattractive not because of your looks, but because of your hateful beliefs and your angry outlook on life. If this blog is any indication of your personality, it’s no wonder why you’re single.

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      • Looks like I hit a sore spot. You obviously didn’t read the website at all.

        I’m guessing you’re female. “Female anger is the weather-vane of truth.”

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    • White male Asian female relationships are TOXIC! White males are becoming more beta and unable to compete for American or European women therefore white males go after Asian women. They think Asian males can’t compete with them and are ugly losers. They think Asian females are submissive and will take any white guy. Asian females have been brainwashed by white media that white is right and everything else is wrong. When these couplings have children they pass these ideas onto their Asian looking sons and their sons develop mental problems because they can’t change their physical appearance or society’s negative views of Asian men. When Asian females realize these men are losers who cannot out earn Asian men, they divorce them. At this point these white males get mad because they realize that Asian women were only using them as an ATM. They don’t love them, they love their money and status. When Asian women divorce their white poor hobo redneck husbands and want to marry Asian males, those Asian males no longer want them because they are damaged goods. Once you go white and you realize it ain’t right, there’s no return flight!

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  7. Wow, you sound really angry and depressed. Then again I can only imagine what that poor mother of yours went thru, one sick child, a pro-nazi husband… poor woman :S

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  8. Hi,

    Found your blog today and read through a few posts.

    I’m not here to deny your observations and tell you life is what you make of it, stop being so angry, etc.

    But I think you need to get red pilled hard. You’ve probably heard the term red pilled get tossed around and maybe you’ve even heard of the Alt-Right. It seems like you don’t understand how the world works. It’s understandable: you were raised in the West and went to an Ivy League school. You may have a lot of knowledge, but you have very little wisdom

    You haven’t touched upon these concepts in relation to your musings on this blog:

    Race Realism: Race is determined biologically and we act the way we do based on race. It is not a social construct. I know you’re part Chinese because you’ve said so on this blog. However, even if you hadn’t of mentioned it, I would have guessed you were Chinese because of how angry you are. Yes, I know you have to deal with all the psychological trauma that comes from seeing your mother as a whore who fucked someone from the race of conquerors, but that’s probably the trigger, not the cause. I have a theory: you’re not angry because you’re a Hapa, you have anger because of your Chinese genes. The fact that you’re half-Asian is always there, which triggers your genetically predisposed rage. The stereotype “Asian Rage” exists for a reason, and is almost always used when referring to Chinese people. Of all the violent Hapas you list on some of your posts (the ones who murder and rape people), how many were part Chinese? Probably a majority of them. Also, how many Tiger Moms are Japanese/Korean/etc? They seem to be mostly Chinese.

    Feminism: You grew up in the West, meaning you grew up in a completely pozzed society where men ceased to be men and women forgot their place. Don’t know about your dad, but what I’ve read about your mother, it seems that she wasn’t very feminine, wore the pants, and society let her do it. This is thanks to feminism, the belief that men need to be neutered so women can feel superior. Like I said, I’ve only read through a few posts, so this is a big generalization I’m making about your late mother. But aside from that, masculinity has been under attack since the 1960s. Being a strong man in society is now looked down upon as “problematic”. If you’re father didn’t instill strong masculine values in you, society definitely didn’t either.

    The JQ: Yeah, yeah, yeah, when I first went to stormfront and saw the neo-nazis blaming the jews for the decline of Western Civilization, I was turned off. But if you dig deep for the truth, you will see how destructive The Tribe has been for Western Civilization for the past 2,000 years. The narrative of the Western World today has been built on egalitarianism, universalism, and a belief in multiculturalism, all shoved down the throats of Western nations, courtesy of the Jews. Think about it: maybe Hitler was right. Maybe the greatest gift you have is the gift of your own people. Maybe nations, and the people of those nations, should be nationalistic and racially aware. If they were, they wouldn’t tolerate race mixing. Hapas like you wouldn’t have these inner demons you seem to face. Perhaps modern society is largely to blame for your dilemma, and maybe your parents are partially victims of a society that has allowed formerly degenerate behavior (race mixing) to become acceptable. Along with pornography, gender dysphoria acceptance, minority worship, fag marriage, etc. Society didn’t change, throw away former values that were important to their cultural survival, and accept degeneracy overnight. A (((((certain tribe))))) pushed all of this upon us. In order to understand the JQ you absolutely must read Culture of Critique, by Kevin MacDonald, former asst. professor of Psychology at CSU Long Beach. Also, visit his site: theoccidentalobserver.net is fantastic and intellectually unparalleled.

    I’m not saying these are answers to your problems. But they probably provide a more honest perspective to things.

    If you want to understand women and feminism, go to returnofkings.com. It’s a PUA blog, and it’s filled with bros, but you’ll gain insight into the sexual market dynamics and feminism.

    Understanding race realism: American Renaissanceis and therightstuff.biz

    The JQ: As I said earlier, Culture of Critique, by Kevin MacDonald. The occidentalobserver.net and therightstuff.biz

    I’ve just laid out only a few RealTalk points but these three alone hopefully give you a different insight on how you view Western society, should you dig deeper and pursue these issues.

    Look at what’s happening in the world right now; we’re going through a massive shift. The establishment is being torn down by Trump, and it’s sending shockwaves throughout the West. A change is happening. Time to get redpilled.

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    • I know what you’re talking about, Mr. Evola. The site is no longer about me. It’s about the future generations of hapas after me that are going to cause a lot more trouble. This website is a canary in a coal mine and designed to instill doubt and self reflection in anyone who reads it, the same doubt that I’ve experienced my whole life.

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    • Man against Time is a wonderful example of what not to be for you non-whites reading this.

      All I see is projection of his shortcomings onto others. A classic white racialist trait. No, it’s never a white man’s problem is it? It’s someone else’s problem or that someone else is keeping the good white man down!

      LOL Chinese are genetically wired for rage? You have got to be kidding me! Talk about bizarre…When we think of the one race that is associated with rage, it’s guess who? Yep mr. man against time himself or the white man.

      Again, projection much?

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    • What Chinese rage, I have never heard of such a thing. But I do hear of Yellow fever. Its a terrible illness suffered by people such as you. Desiring the superior beauty of a race that is above you.

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  9. ” However, even if you hadn’t of mentioned it, I would have guessed you were Chinese because of how angry you are.”

    “The stereotype “Asian Rage” exists for a reason, and is almost always used when referring to Chinese people.”

    There’s no need to make racist statements. I have a feeling that you are a closeted racist.

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