A Little Bit More About Me, Asian America’s Biggest Failure

My extended family is quite prominent; meaning that my mother’s brother(s) and sisters all are very visible members of society…. or maybe not visible (at least one is) but in positions of relative power in corporate structures. I.e. having thousands of people employed under them and being in an position of immense influence in one of the world’s (in the case of one aunt) biggest international banks.

Of course you could choose not to believe this but the choice is up to you; I still pretty much doubt that anyone could ever really rationalize the idea that a man will be okay knowing that he is a member of a defeated race. And to those who say “you make your own world,” no, you do not. 

The world is already clearly defined along power lines and clear hierarchies that puts Asian subservient to white and even if I did want to become successful this would just be proving the common liars right: that white / Asian mixes are somehow better. I genuinely ask you to say that a child born with the implicit knowledge that he is better than his peers because he is whiter is able to succeed in ‘Murica. Go ahead; answer the question.

By most definitions I am a failure compared to even the full Asians in my family and I do not apologize for this. In fact I relish in it.

Yesterday my father and my family went out on a trip around his hometown (i.e., the countryside around it). Aside from the constant history lessons he decided to berate me with as if I were a child, I could detect the gross sadness of having a 32 year old son who couldn’t even enter a darkened room out of fear (we were visiting a historic site), and a son my age who fled off to the far corners of the world just to get away from my own sense of inferiority-  an inferiority reinforced over, and over, and over, and over, and over by Asian women.

Don’t believe me? My uncle, who I am close to, was awarded in the past five years the same award that a president of the United States was awarded at one point. So in this regard… yeah, I am who I say I am.

Last night I talked to my grandmother about the issue… she said (me), why do you have such a problem with your mixed race? And I said, there’s no way you could ever understand. I said, what if it was my own parents who told me that I was worthless implicitly? She said, the reason your parents’ marriage ended was over money, to which I responded, yes, Asian women are obsessed with money and she couldn’t reconcile her white prince Charming with the fact that he was broke.

The whole thing is a fucking joke.

Mental Illness in Motion #3: XiaXue and her son Dash

Xiaxue, popular blogger in Singapore, has a white husband. I’m not going to really go into depth about her since it’s all fairly easy to find online with a simple Google search.

This is her and her son:

Supposedly there is a video of her saying that she actually wanted to have a daughter over a son. This goes hand in hand with what I suspect is a favor for daughters over sons among vehemently racist Asian women (i.e., the Asian women who prefer white males). I suspect that deep down they know that there is

absolutely no way for an Asian looking Asian son to be at peace with himself knowing that his own mother vastly preferred white males – i.e., thought they were superior. 

Knowing what I know now I don’t think it really will ever be possible for this son to live a normal life knowing what he knows.

But anyways, nobody listens to me, despite the fact that there are so, so, so, so few successful Asian looking Eurasian sons out there, despite there being more of them than some small countries. 

Hapas, are White Males Superior?

No?

Then why did my, your, and every other Hapa you know’s mother have children with a white male (withstanding the small percentage of Hapas here with Asian fathers).

Does that make you inferior, or superior, as the son of two people who both rewarded and leveraged white supremacy, in order to have sex, procreate, and create you?

Or do you take pride in being the “best of both worlds,” when really all we are is the “best possible outcome of Asian women and white men exclusively having kids?”

What exactly made your parents different?

Link: “Your children will be denied the official classification of Caucasian within the White Supremacist racial hierarchy. your hapa sons will be psycho-emotionally castrated then given positions as palace eunuchs, allowed to look but never touch.”

From Afro Alchemist:
Young Elliot Rodger thought his fathers status as a white male would be conferred upon him like some type of birth right, but he was wrong. He would only be accepted as who he appeared to be , in his case an  Asian male , and since he had internalized all the toxic racial ideas about Asian men  in white American culture , he could not bear the thought of being relegated to a  status beneath what he mistakenly believed was his white male identity.
He wasn’t a white man and the white women he so desperately wanted never let him forget it. To them he was just a another socially awkward, shy, small, weak , Asian boy.
It was the this part of himself that he subconsciously blamed for his lack of success with the blonde , blue eyed , golden Becky surfer girls that were always beyond his reach. “all those girls that I’ve desired so much, they would’ve all rejected me as an inferior man if I ever made asexual advance toward them”(7)
It was this part of himself he was trying to kill  when he allegdly drugged, bludgeoned with  a hammer, stabbed  and then mutilated with machetes his first three victims : David Wang, George Chen, and James Hong.”

Comment: “I am half white but I do feel disconcerted that all the Asian women in my family are married to white men despite living in an Asian area and attending predominantly Asian universities. I have found that being even half Asian is a complete turn off to a lot of girls.”

Original Comment Here
“I disagree that most people don’t see color in dating. I know white, black and indian girls who only want to date Asian men and I know Taiwanese, Korean and Chinese girls in Asia who only want to date white men. To be honest as someone of mixed Asian European heritage (yeah my moms asian and my dads white bla bla bla, typical story) I do find that non Asian girls who approach me have this obsession with Asian culture and men. They go to all the Asian boybands on tour and openly admit they prefer Asian men. While Asian girls tell me they prefer white men.
Its ironic but white men prefer the delicate feminine features of Asian women and Asian women prefer the rugged masculine features of western men. Opposites truly do attract.
I am half white but I do feel disconcerted that all the Asian women in my family are married to white men despite living in an Asian area and attending predominantly Asian universities. The Asian men are married to Asian or black women. And yeah I have found that being even half Asian is a complete turn off to a lot of girls. I think I am a good looking guy but even my less attractive Caucasian friends get more attention from girls.
Living in England which does not have a large Asian population I do not blame people dating outside their race. I have dated a mixture of ethnicity’s. I know a British born Chinese girl who only wants to date Asian men and goes to Asian clubs to meet Asian men. Strangely nearly all the British born Chinese men are with Indian women and as far as my experience goes most of the girls who show interest in me are Indian.”

Link: Eurasian Teenage daughter who killed her Asian mother Yun Mi Hoy by stabbing her 151 times and then beat her with a baseball bat AVOIDS jail after judge declares her insane. She had become ‘more threatening and disrespectful’ towards her Asian mother

Teenage girl who killed her mother by stabbing her 151 times and then beat her with a baseball bat AVOIDS jail after judge declares her insane

  • Mother, Yun Mi Hoy was discovered stabbed 151 times in the face and neck
  • Arapahoe County judge accepted the teenager’s plea of not guilty by reason of insanity
  • Isabella Guzman, 19, will not go to prison, but instead will be sent to the State Hospital in Pueblo for treatment
  • She had become ‘more threatening and disrespectful’ towards her mother

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2672580/Teenage-girl-stabbed-mother-151-times-AVOIDS-jail-judge-declares-insane.html#ixzz3kAOZZx13
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Link: I think their alienation can be seen in their children – half white/half Asian. These children form their own bubble of “Have-Nots.” These offspring are now considering themselves as discriminated against, and even demanding various affirmative action regulations in jobs and academic institutions.

I think their alienation can be seen in their children – half white/half Asian. These children form their own bubble of “Have-Nots.” These offspring are now considering themselves as discriminated against, and even demanding various affirmative action regulations in jobs and academic institutions.

One thing all these “super smart” Asian women have done is to put their super smartness at nabbing that white male. Why? Because they know that their creature comforts will be met by this white male. Their smartness is perhaps a variation of feminine wiles. I have a feeling they are also very smart at hiding their “inner dragon,” and since the males they’ve nabbed are a variation of the wimpy liberal male, they can continue to cleverly disguise it while milking this foolish male dry.

I think their alienation can be seen in their children – half white/half Asian (as they like to collectively be called Asian, although they make sure you know that they are Chinese/Korean/Philippino/Japanes etc.).

These children literally form their own bubble of “Halfs” or it should be a good pun to call them “Have-Nots.” They travel, ritualistically, to their “ancestral” lands, make earnest efforts to learn their ancestral cultures, and now are even pairing up with mates of their own Asian ancestry, since these are also usually half Asians, or at least they were born in the West, so they have this hybrid culture thing going.

These offspring are now considering themselves as discriminated against, and even demanding various affirmative action regulations in jobs and academic institutions.

But, it is also what their mothers do. Chen talks extensively about a “discriminating” America when she was younger, which is also how I think she gets all these “victimized” women on her talk show panel. Ann Curry CRIED on TV, acting like the poor, injured minority female, attacked by that white male.

And when taken to task, what they do does not equate with other white women: Barbara Walters in media; Carolina Herrera (the wedding dress designer) against whom competes that aggressive and copy-cat Vera Wang (I’ve written extensively about her, for example here); and now Ann Curry who couldn’t stick to her fight with Lauer.

Hapa Thought Exercise

Let’s say you did not know your mother and father.

Let’s also say, for this thought exercise, that you were fully Asian. Or as a Hapa, that you looked fully Asian.

In a time of trouble, i.e., a climate of extreme racism, violence against Asians, mass lynchings, extreme anti-Asian propaganda, yellow peril, war with China or North Korea after 2016 elections, etc.

Would your parents (as strangers) have cared about you? Would your mother (as a stranger) have sympathized with you? Would they have reached out to you as an Asian male? Would they have attempted to bolster the community?

This is actually a legitimate question we all as Hapas need to ask ourselves.

I expect most of you to answer: no

To most of the questions. Wake up call, Hapa kiddos.

Reddit: “Dealing with anger issues from reading r/Hapas”

Reddit Link
“I’ve always had my issues with WMAF, being born of WMAF myself, and living life as a Half-Asian male and seeing 1st hand the extreme sexual inequalities between Whites and Asians in the West.
Reading r/Hapas has been cathartic in a small way, in that I see there are other Hapas out there who feel the same as me, and I’m glad we are at least getting some attention.
But mostly I just feel angered and enraged, the more I read. I just hate WMAF as the greatest evil in the world, and hate myself for being born of WMAF. I feel impotent and weak, since there isn’t much I can do about the situation except fume. Especially the White Males who post at r/Hapas they just make my blood boil. Maybe they’re trolls just trying to get a rise out of me. But I don’t think they are just trolls, as I believe they accurately reflect what the WMAF relationship is all about in the real world.
I just can’t believe that parents can be so evil and make such enemies out of their own children. In a way its not my problem, its their kids problem. But just as a member of the Eurasian race, I’m so angry that WMAFs in general think they can treat us like this. I just want more Eurasians to rise up and fight back. The only silver lining is that I don’t believe I’m unique, I think that most Eurasian men have had similar experiences in life, and they will have the same reaction to reading r/Hapas that I have. Doesn’t this all piss you off? Knowing that other Eurasians have the same feelings, cheers me up a bit, and I know we will win in the longrun.
You guys are all fellow subscribers and readers of r/Hapas. How do you stop it from getting to your head? Doesn’t it all make you very angry? I just feel so helpless, since all I can do with my rage is punch the wall. Maybe I should just go to the gym and let off some steam or some shit.”

Link: ” I refused to be seen in public with my Chinese mother for almost a decade because it guaranteed racial slurs or harassment.”

Original Link to Tumblr
MONDAY, MAY 4, 2015

Anonymous asked: I refused to be seen in public with my Chinese mother for almost a decade because it guaranteed racial slurs or harassment. The most that happened around my white dad was people staring at us and whispering. After my dad passed away I felt completely lost and terrified because I no longer had that protection, and with no white extended family I literally did not know how to go on. We had to move to a racially diverse area 2 states away to even function in society without fear. It was awful.
I think this ask is supposed to showcase how you are protected by white family in public in terms of harassment and racism but as someone with a Chinese mom I can’t help but wonder if you just outright refused to go outside with your mom at all? Like your mom could not escape the racism that was thrown at her?
Neither of my parents could escape racism and I couldn’t pick and choose which one to go out with in order to escape that. Even as a child, I was not afforded the luxury of being ignorant to that because I had to be my mom’s protector, white people would look at me as the 2nd generation and expect me to be the translator, even though my mom could speak English, even as a child my unaccented English was deemed better than my mother’s.
I don’t know where I’m going with this but the way this was worded made me extremely uncomfortable. I understand the point that you were making about being protected from racism, but still.
– Melody