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Why the overwhelming majority of successful, beautiful, happy half Asians have Asian fathers

AMWF: Handsome, full head of hair, mentally stable + a nice woman who loves him for who he is, and is sexually attracted to him, and wants her kids to look Asian like him.

WMAF: Unattractive, racist, bottom of the barrel, hypocritical anti-feminist who marries a cruel, asexual, mentally ill, hostile, negative, self hating Tiger Mom who wants her kids to look white, and marries for social status, money, and bragging rights that her child isn’t Asian (even though the child is Asian), while talking shit about Asian men and white women alongside her loser, insecure husband.

 

Only a matter of time before a WMAF couple kills an AMWF couple.

Or…

A WMAF offspring kills an AMWF couple. (Oh wait, that already happened in Elliot Rodger)

Your pictorial guide to racist white incels, 4chan, 8chan, the alt-right, and their love for Asian women, and why these people are a danger to everyone around them.

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Why white incels, anti-socials, and various other fringe weirdos almost always have yellow fever, and how does that endanger half Asians? Click Here for a Larger Version.

Ever notice how the more a man “likes” Asian women – the more and more he seems to hate Asian men, feminism, white women, black people, and immigrants? I thought it was true love! Ever notice how incels tend to be extreme racists against everyone, yet seem to love Asian women and yearn to travel to Asia? Ever notice how Stephen Paddock loved Asian women? Ever notice that the world’s most famous “incel,” Elliot Rodger, was half-Asian and had an extensive manifesto filled with his hatred of Asian men and White women?

Ever notice how incel boards like 4chan, /pol, and other websites have a passion for Asian women? Why? Why do these hostile, violent incels have Asian women as their number one pick?

🔥Another good example of why half-Asians are a high risk demographic, thanks to their Asian mothers

Asian women fill the pool with dirty syringes and razor blades and diarrhea and phlegm and blood and dead carcasses of animals while they’re young, then they throw their kids into the pool, and then they wonder why the kids have emotional problems, and they go in the New York Times articles talking about “my son doesn’t want to be Asian.”

No shit.

Shout out to whoever made and compiled this.
This kind of talk is endemic both to:

  • Asian women, who constantly talk about how inferior Asian men are – in real time, for half Asian sons who aren’t even theirs to hear. So even the “so called” good couples still have children who are exposed to millions of these women. The question is – why would any half Asian be proud to be Asian as a result, or even worse, look ANYTHING like an Asian male? And many, many half Asians look TOTALLY Asian.
  • White men, especially the ones who are into Asian women. They just love to bash Asian men to make themselves feel bigger with Asian women. (Remember, it’s uniquely white men that are raising half Asian sons, so the children will try to live up to the father’s ethnicity).

So the question is why do half Asian sons try to play down their Asian heritage? I did this for ten years, and went practically insane as I looked more and more Asian. Again, I bullied full Asians, never grew my hair out longer than a couple weeks to avoid it being too dark, and when seeing my black hair fall on the barber’s smock I became almost instantly depressed.
I’ve listed dozens of cases, but I think this sums it up.
Elliot Rodger: “How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them? I thought with rage. I glared at them for a bit, and then decided I had been insulted enough. I angrily walked toward them and bumped the Asian guy aside, trying to act cocky and arrogant to both the boy and the girl.”
Daniel Holtzclaw: “How does that white dick taste?”
John Hamilton: “I’m Scottish below the belt.” 
What are these women going to do when a woman – even an Asian woman – says the same thing to their son? This has been said verbatim to me, and other half Asian men I know:
“I don’t date Asian guys.”
And you wonder why half Asians with Asian mothers have literally produced nothing of merit, ever?
Despite having a mother who beat the shit out of me every day for twelve years and haunted my dreams for another fifteen – not once, not even once, did I ever feel the need to degrade or humiliate Asian women, for twenty three years – until I started this blog.

🔥🔥🔥Welcome to the Hapacalypse: Why More and More Hapa / Half-Asian / Eurasian Criminals is Inevitable and a Good Way to Understand the Bizarre behavior of Half-Asians

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I am actually appealing to non-Asians to recognize these couples for what they are. My mother was like this, my father was an anti-black, antisemitic paleoconservative who valued an Asian woman for her “white worship”, completely disregarding other horrible characteristics of hers, in exchange for getting laid semi-regularly, and then not at all.

Anyone who has ever spent a significant time around Asian women realizes that there are more than a handful who have nothing but vitriolic and vile hatred in their hearts for Asian men. This probably has something to do with their failure to find them attractive (for physical reasons) so they essentially treat them as antagonists.

As if this were not problematic enough, these same women eventually go on to marry white men, and produce half-Asian children. These half-Asian children are exposed to the following elements:

  • Vitriol from Asian women
  • Massively unbalanced interracial dating
  • Constant attacks on Asianness by Asian women in relations with white men (the same ones who date white men yet still have to make the inferiority of Asian men well known)
  • The fact that they themselves naturally require a healthy identity in order to function yet Asian maleness was categorically attacked from the beginning; making healthy identity impossible.
  • A nihilistic sense of self worth where their entire usefulness is dictated by how Asian or un-Asian they look.

This in turn is producing millions of unhealthy Hapa children. 

They literally are creating a Catch-22 for their own sons, wherein they demonize Asianness, yet produce half-Asian sons, and then forbid them from complaining about being brutally reminded of their own inferiority (see the Esther Ku remark above or this one below):

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Even more obvious is the fact that when Asian women are confronted with this, their usual arguments are “we owe Asian men nothing,” “it is not our duty to find Asian men attractive;” which are all true.

However, as these same women are going to give birth to sons and can offer nothing more than off-the-bat platitudes and a complete lack of concern for the mental state of CHILDREN, it is necessary to deduce that:

These women (and men) are literally the last people on earth suited for raising half Asian children, especially men. By being so adamantly opposed to introspection they are actually proving me right in implying they are not suitable for motherhood / fatherhood. A mother / father’s job is to care wholly for the wellbeing of her child, lest she produces a societal-detriment, which we are already filled to the brim with.

So what is happening now is that Asian women are attempting to level the blame onto half-Asian men in the present, in order to immunize themselves in the future from their own self blame, which will happen.

Half Asian men and women are left to fend for themselves in a society that is increasingly racist, rather than decreasingly, as previously though.

However, the real blame needs to be leveled on two parents, an Asian woman and white man (again, oftentimes a man, like my father, who enjoys feeling “superior” over rejected Asian men; or in many cases, just worshipped for his race unjustly whereas he feels white women failed to do so), who do not care for the mental health or spiritual wellbeing of their own sons, a demographic they are callously bringing into the world by the millions, a demographic that is destined to explode in what I call: The Hapacalypse.

We have already seen in two years such violent outbursts from Hapas, all with Asian mothers and white fathers. There will be more coming.

On this date, December 14th, 2015, remember that I, a Eurasian, specifically blamed the dynamic of White Men and Asian Women for creating a demographic of monsters. 

I no longer am concerned with appealing to Asian women. I am concerned with appealing to you, my non-Asian readers, to recognize these people for what they are. This is not a “progressive” pairing. It is racism. Please, please, please recognize this before it is too late. Do I have to remind you about how my mother commented on my high nose, light eyes, repeatedly, while concurrently having a massive blowout at my father for harboring anti-semitic, Holocaust denying views?

Yes, I am Eurasian / Hapa / half-Asian, yes I am real, and no I won’t show my face right now out of fear for attack and retribution. This will happen eventually. But please, please, believe me.

It doesn’t matter how many Asian women deny this; by this blog even existing and popping up after virtually any “half-Asian” search (and within a few months it will be the number one search result), this becomes a problem for society as a whole, and ideally it will ruin the social lives and society’s view of these pairings rather than them being hoisted up as being progressive.

There is no “white-only” Asian woman on the PLANET who would admit to this being a plausible issue; but it doesn’t matter – all I have to do is sway public opinion to my side using reason and truthfulness, and then the whole roof will cave in. That means: appealing to non-Asians, blacks, whites, Hispanics, Muslims, etc. You all know well the adage of the “pen being more powerful than the sword.” You want world peace? Then dismantle the goddamned systems of power and hierarchies that exist in so called “free countries” and stop valuing your own selfish needs for five goddamned minutes.

🔥Another good example of why half-Asians are a high risk demographic, thanks to their Asian mothers

Shout out to whoever made and compiled this.

This kind of talk is endemic both to:

  • Asian women, who constantly talk about how inferior Asian men are – in real time, for half Asian sons who aren’t even theirs to hear. So even the “so called” good couples still have children who are exposed to millions of these women. The question is – why would any half Asian be proud to be Asian as a result, or even worse, look ANYTHING like an Asian male? And many, many half Asians look TOTALLY Asian.
  • White men, especially the ones who are into Asian women. They just love to bash Asian men to make themselves feel bigger with Asian women. (Remember, it’s uniquely white men that are raising half Asian sons, so the children will try to live up to the father’s ethnicity).

So the question is why do half Asian sons try to play down their Asian heritage? I did this for ten years, and went practically insane as I looked more and more Asian. Again, I bullied full Asians, never grew my hair out longer than a couple weeks to avoid it being too dark, and when seeing my black hair fall on the barber’s smock I became almost instantly depressed.

I’ve listed dozens of cases, but I think this sums it up.

Elliot Rodger: “How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them? I thought with rage. I glared at them for a bit, and then decided I had been insulted enough. I angrily walked toward them and bumped the Asian guy aside, trying to act cocky and arrogant to both the boy and the girl.”

Daniel Holtzclaw: “How does that white dick taste?”

John Hamilton: “I’m Scottish below the belt.” 

What are these women going to do when a woman – even an Asian woman – says the same thing to their son? This has been said verbatim to me, and other half Asian men I know:

“I don’t date Asian guys.”

And you wonder why half Asians with Asian mothers have literally produced nothing of merit, ever?

 

🔥Eurasian males and their disrespect for their own heritage, and mothers; and how trying to explore my Asian side was the biggest mistake I ever made.

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Once in a while, I will come upon a half Asian guy who bashes his own heritage. I used to do the same, but I never bashed my mother other than when telling white guys that “Asian women are not that submissive.” Other than that, I was plagued by nightmares of my mother for ten years, and for ten years constantly made fun of Asian people. My relationship to my mother was… non-emotional. Sometimes I imagined that I had no mother, that I was just, somehow, born. I didn’t feel Asian, nor did I want to be, nor did I want to be associated with the woman that she was.

When Asian women marry white men – they do so not because half Asians are attractive, but because white men are more attractive for whatever reason.

My guess is that it’s because Asian women feel white – or at least that they have a place in “superior” White Western culture. One that is a lot more de facto “high class” or “high culture” by virtue of being white. Love is certainly not colorblind – especially when I was at the top of my class, funny, outgoing, and yet heard “I only date white guys, sorry.” 

I guess I missed the cut on being that super hot half Asian.

I mean, white male / Asian woman couples are so common because it’s clear that Asian women just don’t want Asian partners. No other race of women acts like they do; white women marry out, but at a rate of 5%. When Asian women marry out – they go for the most Aryan phenotype that they can get; tall is good, blue eyes is great, extra masculine is very, very good. My dad was two for three – maybe even two-point-five for three.

The goal is to have a white-passing son, and they will be happy. No complaints, a happy social life, white looks, a normal chance at a normal life. This is the ultimate goal.

It’s easy to be “proud” to be Asian – without having to look like it. You can laugh off the jokes, you can claim you’re Hapa without having to deal with the fallout. It’s an added benefit if you are 6’3″, athletic, and very good looking – but I fell three inches too short.

For whatever reason, the ultimate goal is to create white children, without having to change their race; Asian women can just wing it. And until that point they will just sleep with white men, take the brunt of literally every joke about Asian women being white-worshippers, to the point that their children are simply white.

This is why Hapa pride is a joke. Relying on a Eurasian male to have any sensitivity to racial issues is laughable, as long as he can party and have sex and have a hot girlfriend. And I guess this is what our Asian mothers were really hoping for – a son that can just survive in this wasteland of partying and having sex. They might slap on a Chinese or Japanese name, or give you a Chinese middle name but the result is the same. For some reason they can’t see the logic as to why Half Asian males hate being Asian and rather just pass off as white, especially in Western society, which Asian women desperately want to integrate into. After the first fifteen hundred times of hearing “of course it’s your mom who is Asian,” and “you’re handsome (because of your white father)”, half Asian pride becomes stupid.

I was one of those. I would make fun of the Chinese accent, sing fake Chinese songs, even bully some Asian friends. My non-Asian friends thought this was funny, and they encouraged it. After all – nobody wants to fuck an Asian guy. Everyone wants to fuck that cool White guy.

That was until the “I don’t really like Asian guys” started.

Now you can understand why it’s so hard to find a half Asian guy who will date Asian women; because I think, deep down, they all know that we’re just luckier than full Asian men, that even Asian women like our mothers reject in droves. So while these guys might, on paper, claim that they are proud – the bulk of them reject their Asian heritage, and with them, Asian women. Even though they might like them. The real saddest part of half Asian identity is that most of us essentially acknowledge the irony of the situation – that no matter what, we’re better off – and our mothers?

Well – how could we ever take them seriously, knowing this? How could you take seriously a woman who tells you to be proud yet her and all her sisters and friends married white men? The writing is on the wall. How could you respect an Asian woman who threw herself at white men – the same white men who built a universal culture that hates half of us – that humiliates half Asian men for being Asian?

This seals the deal on the issue forever. I don’t want to hear any more sociological musings coming from obscure university offices.

I’ll tell everyone here a real ugly truth. I married my wife because I love her dearly. I married her because I was proud to be Chinese, my mother had encouraged me to marry Chinese, and after all these years, I still considered myself Chinese and left America looking for a place that I could die in peace, and wouldn’t feel so worthless anymore. And there are days that I regret it. I regret it so much. Because I don’t want my children to suffer. And because I simply have no way to explain to them how their lives are worth less – according to millions of women who look like my mother. Chinese women actually make me regret marrying Chinese, for the same reason that many half-Asians don’t want anything to do with them. 

But that’s the American Dream, right? Party, fuck, don’t complain; send some money to people in Africa, but never complain. As long as you’re white, or damn near white, don’t complain.

 

 

Sticky: If Asian women are unique in that they mock and despise Asian men in order to integrate and assimilate with whites – what happens when a Half Asian son looks 100% Asian, and is treated like an Asian male by society, has a racist, anti-social White dad and a broken home? Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of Racist, Anti-Social White Men (With Yellow Fever) and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People; by the son of a Holocaust denying, conservative, shy, black-hating white man, and a hair-dying, colored contact wearing, mentally ill, insanely violent Hong Kongese mother, the two of whom had a “crazy” fetishistic “marriage.”

 

 

 

Half Asian men look and identify as Asian males, yet have two parents, an insecure, racist, anti-feminist, black hating white father and a self-hating, cruel mother who constantly belittles her husband, people around her, out of her insecurity and desperation to fit in.
Half Asian men look and identify as Asian males, yet have two parents, an insecure, racist, anti-feminist, black hating white father and a self-hating, cruel mother who constantly belittles her husband, people around her, out of her insecurity and desperation to fit in. I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing; ironically, the picture in the lower left hand corner is now of another Eurasian male who went to an Ivy League school, had a conservative white dad, and an Asian mother, and had a public meltdown. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.
Two half Asians with their white dad, Chloe Mendel and her brother.
Two half Asians with their white dad, Chloe Mendel and her brother.
Caucasian father Asian mother = Asian looking sons.
Caucasian father Asian mother = Asian looking sons.

I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man – a literal brown haired, hazel eyed dream Hapa boy – born to a mentally ill, violent, Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, rapidly balding, hyper-racist, hyper-conservative conspiracy theorist male who was an “Asiaphile” who wanted a “traditional, chaste Asian wife who wouldn’t sleep with black men” – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism (ironically from Asian women in my own family and white “friends” who actually liked Asian women because they were easy) and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world and being raised to be superior, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, deeply mentally disturbed, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and to this day still unable to undo the damage that the Eurasian myths and family’s racism did to me, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, are gay, permavirgins, or leverage their half-whiteness to Asian women, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 13.5 million views in 2 years, and 2 million views in the last two months. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers. 

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There are very specific issues with being the children of anti-feminist, racist, unattractive white men, and self hating Asian women who try as hard as they can to integrate and create white children, due to their hatred at their marginalization, and their hatred of their undefined facial features.

There are very specific issues pertinent to the “je ne sais quoi” of white men and Asian women, and the incredibly weird, unbalanced, uncomfortable, fetishized “dynamic” of “superior White man,” and “dainty, beautiful Asian woman.”

None of these apply to the children of Asian fathers. Almost every single part-Asian that people use to justify the superiority of Half Asians involves a Half Asian with an Asian father or grandfather (or both): Keanu Reeves, Dean Cain, Brandon Lee, and his father Bruce Lee. The reason why the sons and daughters of Asian men and white women fare better is simply because they are raised to not view whiteness as a superior entity; which both of my parents did, both of them being white supremacists.

Asian women specifically hate Asian men – and hope to create Eurasian children in order to raise their status; White men use Asian women as a means to get laid, provided that they are unable to do so with non-Asian women, whereby meaning that Eurasian childrens’ only value is to look as un-Asian as possible, meaning that Eurasian children are highly prone to mental illness, extremely racist parents, and broken homes. Failing to look attractive (our primary stereotype), means that many Half Asians just look Asian – which are essentially the bottom of the barrel in the racial hierarchy in the West. This also doesn’t take into account the extreme,  cruel, controlling, demeaning, calculating nature of Asian women, where they explicitly hope their children look White, so that Asian women can feel “superior” in wresting the White woman’s status and power away from her at the side of the White man.

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Asian women are the ONLY race that explicitly goes out of their way to attack men of Asian appearance in an attempt to integrate and raise their own value. I do NOT like Asian women, firstly because they are physically unattractive (the fact that they look constantly angry, and the fact that they seem to have no life to their appearance, and just look like they’re always scheming), and also because their behavior is off-putting, controlling, hateful, calculating, and rude, as many others have noticed about them; they seem to pick lower status, unattractive white, and only white men, while Asian and Eurasian men will marry anyone, while Asian women only marry white males. Asian women will actually go out of their way to attack Eurasian men, as well, in a desperate attempt to bring Asian looking men down with them, and lower status, unattractive white men will use this as a ways to validate their whiteness – at the expense of anyone of Asian appearance, including Half Asian men. Asian women will attempt to control their Asian looking sons’ dating choices – pushing them towards Asian women; while white men who marry Asian women will act upon their insecurity and lack of control of their marriage, and lash out at Asian men, black men, and white women. Asian women are so unattractive that they pursue bottom of the barrel men of all races, men who are unable to get White women (their first choices), putting Half Asian children in danger. They will also go out of their way to ensure their flimsy “status,” my assaulting or attacking non-Asian women who are sympathetic to or even date Asian men, out of fear that the equal status of Asian men will reveal that Asian women are in fact not as good as they think they are.

Even Kip Fulbeck, king of all Hapas, admitted that the Hapa male process of self-hatred is such a problem, that it should be a cause for concern.

Imagine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless (father sleeping on the floor for fifteen years), and calculating.

This man (a semi-famous paleoconservative Homophobic activist on par with the Westboro Baptist Church) was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white or non-Asian woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, very racist against blacks, Hispanics and Muslims, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely over the top homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely distasteful of feminism, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture). His interest in Asian culture was largely dictated by his personality – in which he idealized Asian cultures as being more honorable and traditional, and mistook “white worship” (a cultural tick in which Asian women see themselves as less beautiful than white women and marry white men for status and integration), for “traditionalism” and “submissiveness.”

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including five out of six of them in my own family, all of them, including my own parents divorced or separated – my mother being dead) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship, as was the case in every single one of my female relatives, was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

The behavior of Asian women, in particular, is like nothing else on earth, to the point that you can see the majority of all stories about abusive parents on Reddit’s AsianParentStories sub – complain about the mothers, including the second generation Asian mothers – like Amy Chua – who metamorphosize into the Tiger Mothers that they hate, despite claiming to hate Asian men. Celeste Ng, a New York Times best-selling author, personally attacked me, after I pointed out that her book “Everything I Never Told You” was based on the broken WMAF families in her friends’ circle, yet she had written it about a family involving an Asian father. Asian women have proven themselves to be extremely hostile against non-Asian women, something out of their deep self-loathing and cultural proclivity towards integration and status, wherein love is secondary if not nonexistent in favor of maintaining status, face, and power over women who they view, deep down, as more beautiful than them. They will even go so far as to attack Asian male / non-Asian female couples, and force their Eurasian children (like me) to marry Asian, in an attempt to maintain an image of false superiority over non-Asian women; (e.g., that Asian women are the most beautiful, when they are not, and heavily rely on yellow fever and male desperation for their feeling of integration and desirability).

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. Several of my “friends,” who were engineers and nerdy, actually would take every opportunity to remind me of my Asianness, while sleeping with Asian women, as Asian women were all they could get. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal. My insanity grew more and more pervasive as I fantasized about cutting out my eyes to make them deeper, refused to look in the mirror for five years,

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women in my Asian family, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went. Hapa males in particular need special consideration due to the fact that we have zero privilege, and yet are raised by two people who want privilege without having to do any of the work.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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“There were a few half-Asian kids in my high school. The girls did fine. The boys did not. I have for decades thought that if a white and Asian had a kid, the kid should be female. If male, he’s looking at being in Hell.”

Saw these comments on my blog posted elsewhere on the web.

Asian women preferring white men, and outright rejecting men of their own race, is strange and even seems unnatural, but I’m not a psychiatrist or anthropologist. I would think that people would instinctively prefer their own race/ethnicity for group association and especially bond-pairing and having children. Could this behavior be considered a mental illness? How much of this is learned behavior (e.g., social programming/conditioning) and how much is biological or instinctive?

You guys seem to underestimate the psychological toll of being mixed race, and also having WMAW shoved in your face. Think it emasculates Asian men? It fucks us up more.
What’s the problem here? You know for a fact for so many Asian women to openly despise Asian men, that there’s something going on. So why would your own sons be different?
Because you’re a “good father?” Because you encourage them to “work out?” Because Asian men have never worked out before?
By oversimplifying it you guys really, really, REALLY took a huge gamble. The next few decades should be interesting.
You guys missed the big point: Asian women are actively rejecting Asian men in droves, both in Asia and the West. Why on earth do you think this can be surmounted with petty advice? Will or will not your own son be Asian?

I can believe a chunk of it – and how it could possibly screw someone up.
As I laid it out for Quartermain on my blog, nobody actually knows the mental processes and social background of those girls who chase western men. After all: if your mom is nuts, and projects that nuttiness onto you, you’re going to go just a little bit weird and loopy in many ways as a natural consequence.
Which is going to be “interesting” for the children of single mommies. Especially the male children.

There are obviously exceptions, however the examples I know of happen exactly like described. I knew a couple of Thai girls who were half British and they had an amazing time at university living in Australia getting invited everywhere and talked to by both Thai and whites.
One of their brothers came over thinking Australia was welcoming and found himself always tagging along with his big sister because no one wanted to know him on his own.
He dropped out, gained 40kg and moved back in with his parents and is a stoner/gamer.
His sister married a successful Thai businessman and goes to all the big corporate functions as a trophy wife.
He was a nice enough guy, just the whole introverted shy Asian thing is much more attractive in girls than it is in guys.

2009: “Asian/White hapa’s are for the most part really good looking, but they always have weird mental problems for some reason. Anger, depression, it’s always something. Maybe it’s the abusive father and over-subservient mother complex.”

My blog originated in 2014. In 2009 I was at the peak of my “crazy” behavior (i.e. losing 60 pounds in 3 months, having extreme body image issues as a man, and overall attempting to be white).

In 2009, people were already noticing this. If any of the readers here actually went out and met some Hapas, they would start noticing certain patterns.

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Largely – it’s a difficult proposition to navigate the world as a half-Asian child, born under the conditions that white fathers were better than Asians. Look at it from this perspective.

Your half Asian son sees white women laughing at Asian men – then sees Asian women laughing at Asian men – and then sees his own mother married to a white man, and all her friends married to white men.

If my readers think that this line of thought is largely limited to me, or this blog, you’re sorely mistaken.

Any white fathers / Asian mothers who believed that they were truly innocent would be attempting to nip this in the bud now, rather than wait. But in actuality, this is the truth:

These people actually do believe that white men are superior – yet raise half Asian children. The probability of us being resentful of our parents, angry, mentally unbalanced or manic depressive is very, very high.

The half Asian reality summed up here, and why being a half-Asian man is a worse fate than death

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Society doesn’t care that your son is half white. Asian women don’t care that your son is half white. All they want is white men. Half Asian sons are not white men.

Most of the time Asian women marry white men because they don’t like Asian men and have a physical preference for white men, and only white men.
Asian women also dislike being associated with the Asian “gilded Ghetto” monolith, dislike their relatively low status in society (the majority of Western celebrities will never, ever, ever date an Asian woman) and want to feel “included” into the majority culture – so they marry white men at rates unmatched by any other ethnic group, and express extreme distaste for other Asians, an overt obsession with light features and light eyes, in the far-fetched hope that their children will indeed resemble White children. Asian women show off their light-featured children with the belief that their children are white, which is genetically impossible and only possible at a very young age, before children become more pigmented as they age; with these light colored children, Asian women believe that they are “integrated” into the superior Western culture, and that they surmount non-Asian women as being the most beautiful.
Asian women oftentimes feel a jealousy towards White women for their status and appearance, whereby Asian women will date any White male that they can find – meaning that they subject themselves to violence, and oftentimes some of the most repugnant, bottom of the barrel white men, who rely heavily on Asian women’s self hatred to form a relationship. Consistently proving that Asian women are available for unattractive white men – in fact lowers their value to the point that they are targeted by men who are unattractive to White women.
Since the vast, vast majority of White women only want White men, and Asian women also only want white men, this means that Half Asian men are born knowing that their mothers were choosing the men rejected by White women, to father them, and carry on their Asian looks, with the benefit of knowing that Asian looks were so problematic on a male, that even unattractive White men are better fits.
There is no other race on earth that has this ingrained hatred of Asianness and their own men. Literally none.
Half Asian men resemble Asian men, 80-90% of the time. 
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In fact the majority of people don’t like Asian men.
Admit it: your wife / girlfriend is with you because she does not like Asian men. She is only attracted to tall white men, or white men because of the status boost she gets from avoiding Asian males – who are routinely mocked in the media and around the world and prevented from forming relationships with non-Asian women.

They will say it’s because of behavior / feminism, but Asian male behavior (jealousy) is because Asian women don’t like the way Asian men look. Ask any Asian woman married to a white man and she’ll just say:

“I’m just not attracted to them.”

Asian women don’t like Asian men for the same reason MOST white women don’t like Asian men. They are Asian.
A half Asian son realizes this. He realizes that he is Asian too. It doesn’t matter how good looking he is, how talented, how intelligent – he will endure a lifetime of hearing “of course your mother is the Asian one,” and being perpetually second class in non-Asian society. He will endure jokes, endure racism, discrimination from society, see hundreds thousands of Asian women a year paired up with white men, face discrimination in dating, in work – and…
…his own parents will oftentimes be extremely racist against Asian men as well – yet he looks like an Asian guy. 
Even for the Hapas who don’t look like Asian guys – they brag incessantly about being Half Asian, something no other mixed race group does – simply because being Asian is so bad, that being Half Asian is, like a pendulum swinging, much better.
Keep in mind, that Asian women are so world famous for hating their own men – that the men who like Asian women and want to be seen with one in public, are almost uniformly terrible people: racists, Neo-Nazis, White Nationalists, MRAs, MGTOWS, autists, abusive people – like my father.
In fact – it could be said, that unbeknownst to most whites, Asian women can be so extremely racist agains Asian males and pro-white and so “famously easy” for White men – that they tend to attract the worst white males, given that many White men use Asian women as a re-affirmation of the superiority of Whiteness, after being rejected by White women; ergo, Asian women, who feel unattractive, will tolerate low-status White men on the basis that these men are White, henceforth creating a hostile environment towards Eurasians and Asians. 
Meaning, that, because most white and non-Asian women prefer white and non-Asian men, the only men who go for Asian women are the ones who cannot get non-Asian women.
This leads to sons that are at high risk; growing up in broken homes, with bottom of the barrel fathers, and yet oftentimes we look very Asian and are subjected to intense racism as well as dysfunctional homes. The stories of Half Asians growing up in single parents homes, with racist, unattractive white fathers are too many to number.
So half Asians not only look Asian, but come from extremely hateful homes, involving a depressed, mentally ill Asian mother, a sexless, loveless couple that was based entirely on the belief that Asian women should integrate and escape the curse of Asianness, and a racist, inept White father who relied heavily on Asian stereotypes as a way to maintain a relationship.
Along with the millions of Asian women around him disliking Asian men, his own mother does too. Every single Eurasian person with eyes looks around him and sees how Asian women act around white men, fawning, complimenting – and Asian mothers expect us to not notice. Can we please just drop the charade and admit this is true?
How are half Asians supposed to somehow not notice that Asian women openly favor white men, that these couples are extremely narcissistic and have insanely eugenicist beliefs about their own children, and yet develop emotionally healthy?
No other interracial pairing has such over-the-top beliefs that a child from nothing other than a White man, and a thin, colorless Asian woman would produce a master race child.
If he looks Asian, then, well. Welcome to a life of bullying, confusion, resentment, depression, rejection from both sides, and perpetual low self esteem seeing Asian women like his mother paired up millions of times over with white men – yet he looks Asian. 
He will be asked to take pride in the fact that his, and all his friends’ fathers are white, and asked to deal with the stereotypes of White men / Asian women and unable to distinguish between good and bad couplings. He will try to take pride in looking Asian but realizes that nobody, not his friends, not women, not his own mother, wants anything to do with an Asian male. He will be born into an anti-Asian society, look Asian, and recognize that even his own mother valued white men over him. It is the ultimate betrayal. 
Asian women and white men will promise up and down that their sons are superior – largely because they have to make sure that their children truly believe they are superior in order to cover up for one of the most unbalanced interracial pairings – yet whites still view half-Asians as inferior.
I’m sorry. Please, please, please stop lying about this.
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Footnotes:
“But half Asian babies are cute.”
And half Asian babies become Asian men when they grow up. In fact most Asian women can’t tell the difference between a fully grown Asian male and a half Asian male. Sometimes half Asian men grow up to look Latino or Middle Eastern or in some cases Central Asian – which makes Asian women hate the children of other Asian women, for simply not being white. Since blue eyed, blonde haired white men represent the ideal, the Half Asians who resemble other people of color can face hostility from Asian women.
“Half Asian men are hot.”
They’re not all hot, and people won’t care that they’re half. Besides, you believed white men hottest. You turned down hot Asian men for white men, so why would anyone want a hot half Asian man? Why do so many “hot” half Asian men wind up moving back to Asia and marrying Asian women – when his mother made the explicit purpose of moving to a Western country?
I know hot half Asian men.”
Nope. You know men who pass as white. When you figure out how to guarantee your son is 6’3″, let me know. And after all, you wanted a white man, not a half Asian man. Either that, or you know the son of an Asian male and a white woman.
I know Asian men with white girlfriends.”
You know one or two, while you know five times as many Asian women with white boyfriends. These Asian men with white girlfriends are generally above average in appearance.
It’s a yes or no question. Does your loved one hate Asian men? Yes, or no.
Will you son be Asian? Yes or no. Simple question.
Just yes, or no.

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