The Half Asian Baby Lie Pushed by Asian Women (And Their White Male Enablers)

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Deanna Fei’s son. He witnessed racial abused by white men at a Knicks game and will be turned down by white and Asian women, just like his mother turned down Asian men. So now you have a totally Asian looking son born to a woman who spent her entire life talking shit about Asian men and chasing tall white men.
  • Cute babies don’t mean good lookin adults.
  • Most Eurasians don’t look like movie stars.
  • Most Eurasians just look Asian. At best they will look like good looking Asian men, but usually look average.
  • Most women don’t want any Asian blood at all (I’ve been shot down for being Asian three times – despite being tall, good looking, and popular, and this was enough to destroy me forever).
  • Asian women think tall blond white men are better, so that means white men are better than Eurasians.
  • People who hate Asian men – including most women – don’t distinguish between half and full. We are still chinks, inferior to the white men they wanted.
  • Asian women marry white men for social access – i.e., to higher society, access to European spaces, but we, their half Asian sons, are severely limited from those same spaces due to racial insults, disparaging remarks and open discrimination
  • You’re literally asking your own son to take pride in the fact that he looks Asian… but his own mother and all her friends and literally all but a few women around him don’t want Asian men? Really? Are you really asking us to do that?

Even more telling is that 90% of all half Asian people have white dads and Asian moms and we’re supposed to not notice this somehow – we’re not allowed to talk about it despite the fact that no matter where we go – there are Asian women openly preferring white men – meaning that half Asian blood is essentially worthless. 

“Chicks dig mixed guys,” is what I hear a lot. How come whenever a Eurasian says this he’s twenty years old, a permanent virgin, and has no experience with women at all? Chicks dig white looking mixed guys. They don’t dig Asian looks at all. Stop lying about this.

Explaining extreme behavior of young Eurasian males, Part 15

I’m going for total transparency. I try to explain being Eurasian as best as I can. I’m not pretending to be a moral or good person. I am exactly what I am, meaning I was born from two people whose intentions were never clear. You can develop your own theories; Oedipal, Freudian, emasculation, narcissism, failed expectations, mental illness, hybrid depression, anything you want, but I will tell you what it’s like.

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When I see stories like this, the first thing I think is that, shit, I was almost there. Please believe me. Being a Eurasian male is something almost inexplicably terrifying to ourselves. Not to all of us, but to some of us.

I hold back on a lot of my explanations for two reasons.

  • I have the number one half-Asian blog, if not website, on the internet right now so eventually I’m going to catch the eye of someone who knows me. This would essentially be familial suicide.
  • I don’t want to genuinely talk about the kind of mental illness I went under out of fear of… whatever. You guess. Flashing lights, sirens, etc. Sad to say, I went through a phase like that, but I’m over it now, ironically after keeping this blog.
  • During this phase I felt like I was no longer in control. It’s hard to explain, when your mind is so far gone that you feel as if you no longer own your own actions. I felt like I was being trapped in my own appearance, desperate to claw my way out by any means. And the rage, and anger. The sense of being abandoned, the loneliness, the isolation.

I myself admit that I’m a far cry from how either the Asian community or the white community would expect of someone from my educational background.

I also admit that, as far as my readers can tell, I’m “not all there,” I’m a very emotionally damaged person, hurt at a deep level and deeply distrustful of human beings. I am not a good person, I am in fact probably the complete opposite of what a Tiger Mom and a conservative dad – or any kind of upstanding human being – would want from a child. Again, far from the “Eurasian” master race myth, but…

There’s one thing I know and that is that my kind of problem isn’t unique. Up until I went to college I never met another Eurasian male with a white father except for one, who was half Philippino and huge.

I thought this absence was unusual in retrospect. Most of the Eurasians I knew were girls with white fathers or either gender with Asian fathers. It’s as if we were just dropping like flies early on.

I want to explain why guys like the above story are pulling knives on people.

We snap, that’s all it is, really, and the reason is because we feel as if we have no hope.

It’s not like full Asians, who have the hope of becoming rich and getting married. With Eurasians we’re essentially told from birth that looking how we look is somehow a crime.

Full Asian guys say, hey, at least my mom and dad love me, they support me and wish the best for me. For Eurasian guys, it’s like, we don’t even know our own parents. We don’t know who they are. They don’t even know who they are. I mean if you think about it you have two people from totally different backgrounds getting together for reasons that neither one of them is perfectly clear about…. and if they were clear about it, they’d be bad fucking reasons.

Essentially the fetishization clouds their relationship so much that they wind up having such a weird, weird dynamic between the two, and more often than not they converse in broken English. Sometimes I wonder if my mother’s frustration also stemmed from her inability to express herself clearly.

I mean, Christ, just think about it. Just think about it for a moment.

  • It’s an Asian woman being penetrated by a white man. His arm around her in all your photos. White dominating Asian.
  • You go online and see people who look like you absent from everywhere. From pornos, from books, from movies. You see Keanu Reeves, that’s all.
  • You look Asian, but you don’t. You can’t be Asian. Your dad is white. You can’t be.
  • You go out and try to make friends. Then the jokes start. Small dick this, chink that.
  • You say, fuck this, I’m going to be proud to be Asian.
  • Then you realize that Asian men around you are a laughing stock as well.
  • You catch your mom watching Bradley Cooper. She’s watching pale, big nosed white guys that look just like your dad. Forget Oedipal – talk Freudian. 
  • You look Asian. Even your own dad thinks Asian jokes are funny. He’s totally aloof. Even your own mom thinks they’re funny.
  • Your mom makes comments about your tall nose, your eyes, as if you are a doll. You’re not Asian, she says. But you are.
  • You begin to hate everything about yourself. Your hair texture. It looks Asian. Your nose looks Asian. Your eyes look a little bit Asian. You want to just… claw them out, pull your fucking hair out. You’re white. My dad is white.
  • Maybe you’re good looking, maybe you’re not. It doesn’t matter – because you’re still a chink and good looking chinks don’t matter.
  • You begin to feel trapped, and hopeless. The Hapa beauty myths don’t help. Most people just look at you like a chink. You complain to your mom, but she’s in the arms of a man who looks exactly like the people calling you a chink, day in, and day out.
  • Boom. You realize that you’re in the defeated class – but who defeated you? 
  • Wait for it – your own parents, the people who should have been with you since day one. And not only that, but it dawns on you that Asian culture itself, the culture you were raised halfway in, was and is so callous as to not give a single shit about your wellbeing. It was as if, here’s some white blood, deal with it.
  • Boom.

It’s all incredible bizarre. And it has to do with something I still haven’t figured out yet. Just the insane degree of cruelty present in Asian culture that places the individual last, or the massive degree of racism in white culture, just combined for a nuclear level meltdown.

I’m past it now. I’ve moved on. It’s just fair to point out that being Eurasian born in the 1980’s meant that we went through an incubation period. I think this blog should just be a monument to the shit we had to deal with. It takes thirty years for a person to cook fully and within those thirty years some of us just can’t take the heat.

Half Asian Son Alex Buckner Kills Family After Shooting Them and Setting Home on Fire; 2/26/2016

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Son Kills Family After Shooting Them and Setting Home on Firefrom today, February 26th, 2016.

I think it’s time to admit that half-Asian sons have a problem before this gets worse, and it is getting worse; this brings the tally of half Asians to make national news in 2016, to 6.

All of them with white fathers. Let me reiterate: there were 6 half-Asians in the news in the year 2016, alone.

It is February 26th, meaning we are 57 days into the year 2016, and there have been 6 major incidents that have made national news.

Six out of six of these incidents involved half Asian children with white fathers.

Six out of six.

There will be more incidents this year involving half Asians.

They will be uniformly young, more or less in Elliot Rodger’s age bracket.

All of them will have white fathers.

Read this here, on this website: each and every one of them will have a white father.

These are not black criminals committing terrible crimes; these are the sons of white men and Asian women – the supposed master-race of beautiful, talented Eurasians.

Do I need to get into why, again?

Read the blog:

the collision between race fetishism, emasculation, white supremacy, self-hatred, mental illness, cultural and racial confusion, racial bullying, isolation at being mixed race, the Asian mother bad-mouthing Asian men, lack of Asian friendships, lack of Hapa friendships, the white father’s racism, the sexual dynamics between mother and father, the colonialism, the lack of resemblance to ones own parents, and depression are routine in Hapas. Not rare, but routine.

It’s farcical how Asian women intend to instill in us a proper sense of value and self worth when our entire existence is based on how inferior the genes of Asian males are, yet we by and large resemble Asian males.

Listen to me very, very carefully. Read the following words next as if they were written by the Queen mother herself:

I know exactly what I’m talking about when I say that being mixed race is much, much more traumatic than our parents could ever realize, and we have almost no outlet and no resources at all.

The mental illness evident on the early pages of this blog are proof enough that something is amiss, not just in me – but the half-Asian demographic at large.

I am Eurasian. I am not the white man who can take and pick any Asian woman he pleases. In order for me to develop a healthy identity – I must be proud of my Asian heritage. My mother, western culture, and Asian women around me made it very, very difficult to accept myself.

I am cream of the crop – highly educated.

At my very lowest, the feeling of being so alone, so aloof, undesirable, betrayed, self-hating and confused, that I can say with accuracy that I was not in control of myself anymore. I’d hate to say it – but Eurasians are completely unique in our situation as opposed to other mixes, and we, and I – at one point – posed a danger to ourselves and those around us.

“There were a few half-Asian kids in my high school. The girls did fine. The boys did not. I have for decades thought that if a white and Asian had a kid, the kid should be female. If male, he’s looking at being in Hell.”

Saw these comments on my blog posted elsewhere on the web.

Asian women preferring white men, and outright rejecting men of their own race, is strange and even seems unnatural, but I’m not a psychiatrist or anthropologist. I would think that people would instinctively prefer their own race/ethnicity for group association and especially bond-pairing and having children. Could this behavior be considered a mental illness? How much of this is learned behavior (e.g., social programming/conditioning) and how much is biological or instinctive?

You guys seem to underestimate the psychological toll of being mixed race, and also having WMAW shoved in your face. Think it emasculates Asian men? It fucks us up more.
What’s the problem here? You know for a fact for so many Asian women to openly despise Asian men, that there’s something going on. So why would your own sons be different?
Because you’re a “good father?” Because you encourage them to “work out?” Because Asian men have never worked out before?
By oversimplifying it you guys really, really, REALLY took a huge gamble. The next few decades should be interesting.
You guys missed the big point: Asian women are actively rejecting Asian men in droves, both in Asia and the West. Why on earth do you think this can be surmounted with petty advice? Will or will not your own son be Asian?

I can believe a chunk of it – and how it could possibly screw someone up.
As I laid it out for Quartermain on my blog, nobody actually knows the mental processes and social background of those girls who chase western men. After all: if your mom is nuts, and projects that nuttiness onto you, you’re going to go just a little bit weird and loopy in many ways as a natural consequence.
Which is going to be “interesting” for the children of single mommies. Especially the male children.

There are obviously exceptions, however the examples I know of happen exactly like described. I knew a couple of Thai girls who were half British and they had an amazing time at university living in Australia getting invited everywhere and talked to by both Thai and whites.
One of their brothers came over thinking Australia was welcoming and found himself always tagging along with his big sister because no one wanted to know him on his own.
He dropped out, gained 40kg and moved back in with his parents and is a stoner/gamer.
His sister married a successful Thai businessman and goes to all the big corporate functions as a trophy wife.
He was a nice enough guy, just the whole introverted shy Asian thing is much more attractive in girls than it is in guys.

2009: “Asian/White hapa’s are for the most part really good looking, but they always have weird mental problems for some reason. Anger, depression, it’s always something. Maybe it’s the abusive father and over-subservient mother complex.”

My blog originated in 2014. In 2009 I was at the peak of my “crazy” behavior (i.e. losing 60 pounds in 3 months, having extreme body image issues as a man, and overall attempting to be white).

In 2009, people were already noticing this. If any of the readers here actually went out and met some Hapas, they would start noticing certain patterns.

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Largely – it’s a difficult proposition to navigate the world as a half-Asian child, born under the conditions that white fathers were better than Asians. Look at it from this perspective.

Your half Asian son sees white women laughing at Asian men – then sees Asian women laughing at Asian men – and then sees his own mother married to a white man, and all her friends married to white men.

If my readers think that this line of thought is largely limited to me, or this blog, you’re sorely mistaken.

Any white fathers / Asian mothers who believed that they were truly innocent would be attempting to nip this in the bud now, rather than wait. But in actuality, this is the truth:

These people actually do believe that white men are superior – yet raise half Asian children. The probability of us being resentful of our parents, angry, mentally unbalanced or manic depressive is very, very high.

News Article from 200 describes a Half-Asian Son of a Korean woman as having “never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

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How about this news article from 2000?

Original here:

“The inherent evil of Woldt is not in question – his own mother is Korean and apparently Woldt never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

More here:

So… another Eurasian who snapped due to a combination of being raised under a white-worshipping Asian mother and a patronizing white father who tries to raise us as being white.

People don’t recognize that the world might see Woldt as white – but he doesn’t. And even worse is that people can smell the Asian blood on you, and will humiliate it for you. I’ve had women straight up tell me “you have an Asian body,” “I don’t date Asian men,” etc.

Explain to me, dear reader, right, now how Asian women that adamantly refuse Asian men, fail to instill pride in their own children in their Asian appearance (and even if they did attempt to, their actions still prove louder than their words) are going to raise productive citizens.

“Oh but white guys have problems too.” White guys have problems and also don’t deal with debilitating sexual stereotypes. Let’s be honest.

This site is well on its way to being the largest half-Asian website in the world, and yet nobody has attempted to shut me down at all with lucid arguments.

 

Why Politics Mean Nothing to a Eurasian

Why do Asian women love white men? Is it because Asian men are unattractive? Is it because Asian men are patriarchal assholes?

The answer is that it doesn’t matter; the outcome is the same. A Eurasian male. Having children and giving them a good life goes well beyond being able to have mutual attraction and having sex; and even if the mutual attraction is structured as such because of biological or political reasons, the fact remains that the child is still stuck with the outcome of being an Eurasian male (and more often than not, an ASIAN LOOKING MALE) born to a man and woman who cared little for the issues of Asian men. 

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